When the Universe serves up a lesson for me, I try very hard to be present. Mostly because if I miss the point, it seems to serve it up again just for a laugh! At least my sense of humour is improving!
My lesson so far has been about standing in my truth and asking for what I need when in relationship to other people. I am not terribly good at that. It is easier to try to morph into whatever the other person needs and then be disappointed that my mind is not being read and my needs aren't being met while I meet theirs instead! Really productive! And not very clear or fair for either party. In the best interest of cleaning up my relationship etiquette I am making a concious effort to be honest and clean in my communication.
Spending a bit of time in reflection I have realized that one of my most important values is freedom. Freedom to explore myself and my surroundings in relationship to the people I love. I am not afraid of direct communication. I am only afraid of being prevented from having the freedom to explore all aspects of being in relationship to another person. I realize that controlling how that occurs is not important to me, only that it does. However someone else controlling how that occurs or doesn't occur, pokes me in some very deep dark places. I look at every moment as a possibility to deepen those relationships, no matter how those conversations start or what the contents may be. Being prevented from doing so or having someone decide what, when or how I can share, inhibits my ability to show up fully within the context of that relationship, and that for me is a deal breaker. Win- Win, or no deal. My life is about infinite possibilities. I believe in flexible, evolving, loving and mindful communication. I want to hear you. I want to understand and be understood too.
The gift of this continuing to show up, is that I can look deep into myself and understand what it is about where I am vibrating at on this level, that is drawing this lesson in again. And I can look at those relationships with love and acceptance, speak my truth about where I am at and what my needs are, and with complete surrender, offer win- win options to those who are so important to me. I have faith that what needs to occur will do so in an environment of complete safety and acceptance.
I believe within every moment is an opportunity to press out and expand my comfort zone. To move the boundaries of that box further and further away from me until there is nothing that limits me anymore. I am grateful to each of you for allowing me to do this within our relationships. I look forward to sharing that journey. I know that every person comes into my life to share a gift with me and take a gift from me. I have lost the attachment to what those gifts are and am trying to simply accept and give what is required with loving gratitude trusting that what you offer is perfect as it is, and what you need from me will just show up. I am glad each and every one of you is in my life, and however you choose to be in relationship to me, I want you to know you have an important piece of my heart. You all matter to me more than you will ever know.
In love and light,
Kathryn
My lesson so far has been about standing in my truth and asking for what I need when in relationship to other people. I am not terribly good at that. It is easier to try to morph into whatever the other person needs and then be disappointed that my mind is not being read and my needs aren't being met while I meet theirs instead! Really productive! And not very clear or fair for either party. In the best interest of cleaning up my relationship etiquette I am making a concious effort to be honest and clean in my communication.
Spending a bit of time in reflection I have realized that one of my most important values is freedom. Freedom to explore myself and my surroundings in relationship to the people I love. I am not afraid of direct communication. I am only afraid of being prevented from having the freedom to explore all aspects of being in relationship to another person. I realize that controlling how that occurs is not important to me, only that it does. However someone else controlling how that occurs or doesn't occur, pokes me in some very deep dark places. I look at every moment as a possibility to deepen those relationships, no matter how those conversations start or what the contents may be. Being prevented from doing so or having someone decide what, when or how I can share, inhibits my ability to show up fully within the context of that relationship, and that for me is a deal breaker. Win- Win, or no deal. My life is about infinite possibilities. I believe in flexible, evolving, loving and mindful communication. I want to hear you. I want to understand and be understood too.
The gift of this continuing to show up, is that I can look deep into myself and understand what it is about where I am vibrating at on this level, that is drawing this lesson in again. And I can look at those relationships with love and acceptance, speak my truth about where I am at and what my needs are, and with complete surrender, offer win- win options to those who are so important to me. I have faith that what needs to occur will do so in an environment of complete safety and acceptance.
I believe within every moment is an opportunity to press out and expand my comfort zone. To move the boundaries of that box further and further away from me until there is nothing that limits me anymore. I am grateful to each of you for allowing me to do this within our relationships. I look forward to sharing that journey. I know that every person comes into my life to share a gift with me and take a gift from me. I have lost the attachment to what those gifts are and am trying to simply accept and give what is required with loving gratitude trusting that what you offer is perfect as it is, and what you need from me will just show up. I am glad each and every one of you is in my life, and however you choose to be in relationship to me, I want you to know you have an important piece of my heart. You all matter to me more than you will ever know.
In love and light,
Kathryn
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