My dream debt has continued. Or so I thought. Still unable to recall any dreams I have started asking to remember them before I go to sleep. You are laughing now, but, what would you do? Right? If you don't ask, you don't get. So I asked.
Three nights ago, I had a very interesting and detailed dream about a white stallion I met on the road. The meaning for me was profound. The night after, I woke up "thinking" about the mechanics of something odd. I felt annoyed for a moment and then I thought I have dreamt this before. Only I thought I was awake thinking about it. Recurring dreams for me are very important. That really shifted my thought process. I am dreaming. But my mind is confusing thinking with dreaming at night. My mind has somehow relabelled my process.
My mind is so busy and engaged these days in what I am studying, that it did occur to me to think that maybe I am actually dreaming, but it feels like an extension of my mind's play during the day, so I am not perceiving a difference between the night and the day state. My mind is essentially dreaming all the time. I just finished a book by Don Miguel Ruez called The Voice of Knowledge. He is a decendant of the Toltec people in Mexico. They are an ancient people and they believe that human beings are simply dreamers dreaming a dream. That in fact, it is the dream that becomes our reality. And our night dreams are only dreams within the dream. We create our own story by our choices in every moment and ultimately if we are concious enough, we can form a relationship with our own manifestation space and begin directing or conciously choosing our reality from that internal space. My own experience lately has been a merging of these states and a bluring of the lines of concious awareness. It has been a beautiful experience, unfolding of a great deal of new understanding for me. From an intentention space, it has been about opening in every sense of the word, body, mind and spirit.
Last night I went to bed with particular focus on remembering my annoying trivial dream so I could figure out what that one was all about. Instead I woke up repeating a phrase over and over in my mind. It felt like someone was whispering in my ear all night. The phrase was "Seek Brahma, connectedness in all things". I woke up with the cat on my chest and for a moment I was disoriented and thought it was the cat talking to me, unlikely as that was! But the message was clear and concise. And I felt like I had been hearing it all night long. So who the heck is Brahma and how do you seek him? The connectedness part resonated with me as that has been a theme within my yoga and meditation practice, so I decided to start looking there for an answer.
I got to work this morning after thinking about it my whole drive in and hit Google with a vengence. It turns out that Brahman is one third of the Hindu trinity of God. He is the creator, the creationary force in the universe. The others are Vishnu, who incidentally rides a white stallion like the one I have been dreaming of, and the last is Shiva who I just wrote about in my Yoga talk blog. I don't believe in coincidence anymore, but this last piece of convergence kind of blew my mind. Brahman is the creationary force of the universe, the world is his projection. Vishnu is the protector, and Shiva is the destroyer. Together the three of them form the circular nature of our universe, the ever renewing process of our reality, seen and unseen. Brahman would be essentially the idea within the phrase I heard in my dream, the connectedness in all things, the light, the sacredness of OM, the sound everything in the Universe makes at a soul level. Brahman is the connecteness of all things. How to seek him on the other hand, is a whole other matter. I emailed my yoga teacher to ask if he had any thoughts.
One half of the mystery solved, I spoke to one of my dearest friends who is one of our hygienists at work and I asked her what she thought it meant, Her husband is Hindu and I figured she might be familiar with the stories. She said it reminded her of what her mother would call a "bol" or a personal mantra. It is thought that such a mantra can become a personal channel to the divine much the way we seek divine connection through meditation. She suggested that because of the way it came to me, that I should take it and meditate using it as my mantra and see what shows up. I told her in my dream, I felt like it was the lyrics to the most beautiful song I had ever heard. I woke up feeling blessed and happy. It was like they were lyrics to the song in my soul. That convinced her that she was right. Your own personal mantra is meant to open your bliss.
Today has been one of those beautiful days that are happening more often now for me, where I feel connected to everything and everyone. Quiet days where my mind is happy and overflowing with oneness and peace. I wonder silently what lies ahead, as all of these pieces come together and the tapestry unwinds before me. There is so much joy for me in the learning and so much awe when there are things in the outer world that correspond to what I am experiencing within my inner world. Connectedness. I realize that I don't need to know. In fact the joy of my life has become the unknown. The mystery. That space from which all things come into being. It is the essence of faith, which is the core of my very soul. The willingness to act from a space of complete trust, to leap empty handed into the void without fear.
What I am learning has such profound resonance for me that I am struck with how very lucky I am in my life. How very many things I have to be grateful for and to be humbled by. I believe this mantra is a call in my life somehow, and I know that where that will lead me, will be exactly where I am meant to go.
In love and light,
Kathryn
Three nights ago, I had a very interesting and detailed dream about a white stallion I met on the road. The meaning for me was profound. The night after, I woke up "thinking" about the mechanics of something odd. I felt annoyed for a moment and then I thought I have dreamt this before. Only I thought I was awake thinking about it. Recurring dreams for me are very important. That really shifted my thought process. I am dreaming. But my mind is confusing thinking with dreaming at night. My mind has somehow relabelled my process.
My mind is so busy and engaged these days in what I am studying, that it did occur to me to think that maybe I am actually dreaming, but it feels like an extension of my mind's play during the day, so I am not perceiving a difference between the night and the day state. My mind is essentially dreaming all the time. I just finished a book by Don Miguel Ruez called The Voice of Knowledge. He is a decendant of the Toltec people in Mexico. They are an ancient people and they believe that human beings are simply dreamers dreaming a dream. That in fact, it is the dream that becomes our reality. And our night dreams are only dreams within the dream. We create our own story by our choices in every moment and ultimately if we are concious enough, we can form a relationship with our own manifestation space and begin directing or conciously choosing our reality from that internal space. My own experience lately has been a merging of these states and a bluring of the lines of concious awareness. It has been a beautiful experience, unfolding of a great deal of new understanding for me. From an intentention space, it has been about opening in every sense of the word, body, mind and spirit.
Last night I went to bed with particular focus on remembering my annoying trivial dream so I could figure out what that one was all about. Instead I woke up repeating a phrase over and over in my mind. It felt like someone was whispering in my ear all night. The phrase was "Seek Brahma, connectedness in all things". I woke up with the cat on my chest and for a moment I was disoriented and thought it was the cat talking to me, unlikely as that was! But the message was clear and concise. And I felt like I had been hearing it all night long. So who the heck is Brahma and how do you seek him? The connectedness part resonated with me as that has been a theme within my yoga and meditation practice, so I decided to start looking there for an answer.
I got to work this morning after thinking about it my whole drive in and hit Google with a vengence. It turns out that Brahman is one third of the Hindu trinity of God. He is the creator, the creationary force in the universe. The others are Vishnu, who incidentally rides a white stallion like the one I have been dreaming of, and the last is Shiva who I just wrote about in my Yoga talk blog. I don't believe in coincidence anymore, but this last piece of convergence kind of blew my mind. Brahman is the creationary force of the universe, the world is his projection. Vishnu is the protector, and Shiva is the destroyer. Together the three of them form the circular nature of our universe, the ever renewing process of our reality, seen and unseen. Brahman would be essentially the idea within the phrase I heard in my dream, the connectedness in all things, the light, the sacredness of OM, the sound everything in the Universe makes at a soul level. Brahman is the connecteness of all things. How to seek him on the other hand, is a whole other matter. I emailed my yoga teacher to ask if he had any thoughts.
One half of the mystery solved, I spoke to one of my dearest friends who is one of our hygienists at work and I asked her what she thought it meant, Her husband is Hindu and I figured she might be familiar with the stories. She said it reminded her of what her mother would call a "bol" or a personal mantra. It is thought that such a mantra can become a personal channel to the divine much the way we seek divine connection through meditation. She suggested that because of the way it came to me, that I should take it and meditate using it as my mantra and see what shows up. I told her in my dream, I felt like it was the lyrics to the most beautiful song I had ever heard. I woke up feeling blessed and happy. It was like they were lyrics to the song in my soul. That convinced her that she was right. Your own personal mantra is meant to open your bliss.
Today has been one of those beautiful days that are happening more often now for me, where I feel connected to everything and everyone. Quiet days where my mind is happy and overflowing with oneness and peace. I wonder silently what lies ahead, as all of these pieces come together and the tapestry unwinds before me. There is so much joy for me in the learning and so much awe when there are things in the outer world that correspond to what I am experiencing within my inner world. Connectedness. I realize that I don't need to know. In fact the joy of my life has become the unknown. The mystery. That space from which all things come into being. It is the essence of faith, which is the core of my very soul. The willingness to act from a space of complete trust, to leap empty handed into the void without fear.
What I am learning has such profound resonance for me that I am struck with how very lucky I am in my life. How very many things I have to be grateful for and to be humbled by. I believe this mantra is a call in my life somehow, and I know that where that will lead me, will be exactly where I am meant to go.
In love and light,
Kathryn
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