Well like all single parents I live a double life! I have two weeks as Mom to my handsome boys and two weeks as Kathryn, 41 navigating the mystery of life like everyone else. I have decided to create a new blog around my journey as there are starting to be more entries about that than autism on my original blog! We are in a great place around the kids journey and things seem to be stabilizing. My life on the other hand is in high gear around my search for spirit and integration of the divine feminine. In fairness to people only interested in the family journal, from now on I will walk two parallel paths. I invite you to join me on both.
I am experiencing a beautiful shift in my own conciousness around dreaming. Somewhere along the line I lost the ability to remember my dreams. For almost three years I have not remembered a single one. This week after yoga and mediation I have had two that really moved me.
The first one, I am in a small canoe on the ocean. There are four of us in boats, I cannot see faces. We are low on the ocean, the water is black and it is sunset and the sky is red and purple. There are no clouds. Suddenly the guide is on his radio saying that we are on the outer perimeter and there is a bad storm coming. You will not see it but it is coming. We are giving you our coordinates because we will not be able to outrun it. I repeat, you will not see it coming. The terrain is many low islands with jagged rocks black against the velvet sky. I am looking up thinking, there is not a cloud in the sky! What storm is this guy talking about? I know boats, and weather and it all looks good to me.... And the next thing I know someone reaches for something in their boat and tips us all into the black water. It was silky liquid blackness, neither hot nor cold. Thick and fluid. In real life I hate not being able to see below me ( thank Jaws) and would have panicked a bit but there I was perfectly calm. Fifty feet away in front of us I see shark fins. Four of them. I am not even remotely afraid. I remember thinking for God sake don't thrash around we are going to look like food! The first shark came right towards me. I linked my hands and gently placed them over the fin and rode away on the shark. I knew it was coming for me. Then I woke up.
Sharks in dreams represent all sorts of things including people as "sharks", anger, etc but none of those felt right somehow. Sharks in spirituality however, are excuse the pun , a whole different kettle of fish. Sharks are about swimming around in your own awareness. Navigating deep waters. That resonates. They are also masters of survival. That resonates too. They are about the root chakra, just like goddess energy and they are about primal knowing. Sharks are of course about water which is a huge part of my journey as a current "water goddess". The element of water is about dreams, intuition and emotion. Sharks must stay in motion or they sink and die, (that also sounds kinda familiar! ) One of the messages is swim the path of least resistance in life and be efficient and direct in your navigation. Again kind of resonates with the river idea for me, the part about going with the flow. I find when things get really difficult and I feel like I am swimming upstream I am always going the wrong direction. Turn around and let the water carry me where it wills. Surrender to the process and stop always trying to impose my own will on the situation. Trust that what is meant to show up will show up. What a beautiful space to operate from.
It was a very powerful dream and left me with a lot of emotion when I woke up. Mostly I gave thanks for the end of the dream drought, and realize my channels are once again open and clear to receive.
In love and light,
Kathryn
I am experiencing a beautiful shift in my own conciousness around dreaming. Somewhere along the line I lost the ability to remember my dreams. For almost three years I have not remembered a single one. This week after yoga and mediation I have had two that really moved me.
The first one, I am in a small canoe on the ocean. There are four of us in boats, I cannot see faces. We are low on the ocean, the water is black and it is sunset and the sky is red and purple. There are no clouds. Suddenly the guide is on his radio saying that we are on the outer perimeter and there is a bad storm coming. You will not see it but it is coming. We are giving you our coordinates because we will not be able to outrun it. I repeat, you will not see it coming. The terrain is many low islands with jagged rocks black against the velvet sky. I am looking up thinking, there is not a cloud in the sky! What storm is this guy talking about? I know boats, and weather and it all looks good to me.... And the next thing I know someone reaches for something in their boat and tips us all into the black water. It was silky liquid blackness, neither hot nor cold. Thick and fluid. In real life I hate not being able to see below me ( thank Jaws) and would have panicked a bit but there I was perfectly calm. Fifty feet away in front of us I see shark fins. Four of them. I am not even remotely afraid. I remember thinking for God sake don't thrash around we are going to look like food! The first shark came right towards me. I linked my hands and gently placed them over the fin and rode away on the shark. I knew it was coming for me. Then I woke up.
Sharks in dreams represent all sorts of things including people as "sharks", anger, etc but none of those felt right somehow. Sharks in spirituality however, are excuse the pun , a whole different kettle of fish. Sharks are about swimming around in your own awareness. Navigating deep waters. That resonates. They are also masters of survival. That resonates too. They are about the root chakra, just like goddess energy and they are about primal knowing. Sharks are of course about water which is a huge part of my journey as a current "water goddess". The element of water is about dreams, intuition and emotion. Sharks must stay in motion or they sink and die, (that also sounds kinda familiar! ) One of the messages is swim the path of least resistance in life and be efficient and direct in your navigation. Again kind of resonates with the river idea for me, the part about going with the flow. I find when things get really difficult and I feel like I am swimming upstream I am always going the wrong direction. Turn around and let the water carry me where it wills. Surrender to the process and stop always trying to impose my own will on the situation. Trust that what is meant to show up will show up. What a beautiful space to operate from.
It was a very powerful dream and left me with a lot of emotion when I woke up. Mostly I gave thanks for the end of the dream drought, and realize my channels are once again open and clear to receive.
In love and light,
Kathryn
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