I don't know what it is, but there is something in the air. My business partner and I were laughing yesterday (to the point where there was snorting involved), not very lady like but tremendous fun. I feel like someone left the laughing gas tanks open in our office and filled the space with that infectious giggle producing air.
Maybe it's spring, maybe it is my absolute joy at having been liberated from months and months of snow.
Or maybe it is me.
Last night at my " Find Your Inner Goddess" course, we did belly dancing. I have not had that much fun in years. And I found muscles I didn't know I had! But I am going right on line this morning to order one of the jingle skirts because by God when I get my basement renovated and they finish my yoga/dance room I am going to practice up a storm! Look out Edmonton!
I told our facilitator that I felt Euphoric. That kind of happy where your feet have trouble touching the ground. A bit off balance. Everything feels new and full of possibilitiy. It reminded me that three years ago when I finished PB 3 the statement I chose to go forward was this, "My life is about infinite possibilities."
Somewhere along the line that changed to "my life is about all the things I will never be allowed to do".
I made choices around my life that took me there. But now, my horizon is once again clear.
She told me to stop trying to analyze why and just sit in it. Enjoy it. Rrrrrrroooooollll in it.
You haven't been there in a long time. It is not important to dig into why it is back, just enjoy that space.
Part of it is reconnecting with friends I have missed. How deeply I missed them I cannot find words to share.
The gift of having them back in my life has reconnected me with joy. With profound gratitude. Thank you for not deserting me. Thank you for the forgiveness around allowing me without judgement to go where I had to go.
I have stopped dreaming again, but I am getting the best sleep of my life. I feel like I crawl into bed and am cocooned until morning. Almost like I am surrounded, and protected the whole night long. My instinct on that is that as much as I look forward to dreaming, that there is some healing that needs to occur right now instead. Some safe and silent rebuilding in the quiet of the night. I wake up refreshed and peaceful, like I have been floating in calm water all night, craddled in the gentle swell.
I don't know what is in the air, but what ever it is, I am grateful for it.
In love and light,
Kathryn
Maybe it's spring, maybe it is my absolute joy at having been liberated from months and months of snow.
Or maybe it is me.
Last night at my " Find Your Inner Goddess" course, we did belly dancing. I have not had that much fun in years. And I found muscles I didn't know I had! But I am going right on line this morning to order one of the jingle skirts because by God when I get my basement renovated and they finish my yoga/dance room I am going to practice up a storm! Look out Edmonton!
I told our facilitator that I felt Euphoric. That kind of happy where your feet have trouble touching the ground. A bit off balance. Everything feels new and full of possibilitiy. It reminded me that three years ago when I finished PB 3 the statement I chose to go forward was this, "My life is about infinite possibilities."
Somewhere along the line that changed to "my life is about all the things I will never be allowed to do".
I made choices around my life that took me there. But now, my horizon is once again clear.
She told me to stop trying to analyze why and just sit in it. Enjoy it. Rrrrrrroooooollll in it.
You haven't been there in a long time. It is not important to dig into why it is back, just enjoy that space.
Part of it is reconnecting with friends I have missed. How deeply I missed them I cannot find words to share.
The gift of having them back in my life has reconnected me with joy. With profound gratitude. Thank you for not deserting me. Thank you for the forgiveness around allowing me without judgement to go where I had to go.
I have stopped dreaming again, but I am getting the best sleep of my life. I feel like I crawl into bed and am cocooned until morning. Almost like I am surrounded, and protected the whole night long. My instinct on that is that as much as I look forward to dreaming, that there is some healing that needs to occur right now instead. Some safe and silent rebuilding in the quiet of the night. I wake up refreshed and peaceful, like I have been floating in calm water all night, craddled in the gentle swell.
I don't know what is in the air, but what ever it is, I am grateful for it.
In love and light,
Kathryn
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