Last night I had the final night of my Goddess course. Four wonderful weeks with a bunch of crazy amazing women celebrating the discovery of self. For me, it couldn't have come at a better time. It gave me something to look forward to doing every week, homework to do that drew me deeper into my own process and didn't allow me to "busy it up" with distractions. The timing was perfect. Last night was about releasing and letting go of anything that is holding us back from coming into the full expression of who we are.
The releasing homework took me to a space of thinking about beginnings and endings in my life. We all have them, they are really the basic threads of life that everything else is strung upon. The warp and the weft threads on the loom. Beginnings are easy and exciting. Sometimes we get stuck on the endings. We throw a psychic anchor out when we are not ready for something to move out of our lives. And we don't often get to choose when those events happen. The end of a marriage, a change at work, all of those things involve other people. Fear shows up when change marches in, and it can leave us feeling like we are drowning in the middle of the ocean. No wonder we are tossing out hooks, reaching for the familiar even when it no longer serves us, and trying to keep from going under the water.
What is best expressed by a famous poem I'm sure you've all heard, is that "people and things come into our lives for a time, a reason or a season". The earlier we surrender to this, the better we are able to embrace what comes. The process is perfect, just as it is. You can't call something to you that doesn't belong to you, you can't ever lose something that does and you can't hang on to something or someone if their place is elsewhere. The rest is just a process of allowing. Believing that none of this is random. There is a master plan we are not privy too. We each can only see a few pieces of the grand puzzle. Instead of clutching the pole on the side of the pool, turn and dive in of your own free will. Sit in the emotion of where you are, positive or negative until it passes. It all passes if we simply allow it to move through our bodies instead of fighting so hard against what we are feeling.
A good friend taught me a really important lesson. Everything is impermanent. Nothing is forever. Not good looks, not hair, well, you get it, the list goes on!!! In meditation, we will often sit perfectly still for hours. Your legs fall asleep, your head gets itchy, your mind creates all sorts of reasons why you need to move, get up, scratch etc. The crazy out there thing is, if you acknowledge it but don't focus on it, just let it go, it all goes away without moving, scratching or anything else. Pain and discomfort are as transitory as joy and elation. You wouldn't want to stay in any one of them forever. Trust me!
When my marriage ended, I realized that if it was wrong for me, God is not cruel enough to make it right for him. By staying in his way, I was also blocking good things and relationships from coming to him. Both of us are now in a really good place and are able to continue being supportive of each other. We made the right choice, and moving through the pain and discomfort of that in the moment, has brought us to this place. We are both healthier and happier.
The old adage time heals all things is very true. And time brings more life and more things to be joyfully released as we open our arms to embrace all of the amazing things that are on their way to us. It is a grand version of the cycle of giving and receiving. To block one or the other, causes the flow in the circle to stop. I have spent a long time learning to be comfortable with receive. I have always been really good at the give part. But part of giving is not just giving the new, it is giving up what needs to be released to move on, or giving up that which no longer serves you. Give and receive refer not only to the people in your life, but to the universe as a whole. And the Universe has it 's own mind around what we need to give and receive. Everything is a gift. Even those things we must surrender. I find it helpful to try to remind myself that each person and thing in my life plays it's role perfectly and then moves on to where it is needed next.
Jump in the river and float, you are in exactly the right place at this moment, learning exactly what you need to learn. And we are all in there with you! The one thing I know is we are never alone.
In love and light,
Kathryn
The releasing homework took me to a space of thinking about beginnings and endings in my life. We all have them, they are really the basic threads of life that everything else is strung upon. The warp and the weft threads on the loom. Beginnings are easy and exciting. Sometimes we get stuck on the endings. We throw a psychic anchor out when we are not ready for something to move out of our lives. And we don't often get to choose when those events happen. The end of a marriage, a change at work, all of those things involve other people. Fear shows up when change marches in, and it can leave us feeling like we are drowning in the middle of the ocean. No wonder we are tossing out hooks, reaching for the familiar even when it no longer serves us, and trying to keep from going under the water.
What is best expressed by a famous poem I'm sure you've all heard, is that "people and things come into our lives for a time, a reason or a season". The earlier we surrender to this, the better we are able to embrace what comes. The process is perfect, just as it is. You can't call something to you that doesn't belong to you, you can't ever lose something that does and you can't hang on to something or someone if their place is elsewhere. The rest is just a process of allowing. Believing that none of this is random. There is a master plan we are not privy too. We each can only see a few pieces of the grand puzzle. Instead of clutching the pole on the side of the pool, turn and dive in of your own free will. Sit in the emotion of where you are, positive or negative until it passes. It all passes if we simply allow it to move through our bodies instead of fighting so hard against what we are feeling.
A good friend taught me a really important lesson. Everything is impermanent. Nothing is forever. Not good looks, not hair, well, you get it, the list goes on!!! In meditation, we will often sit perfectly still for hours. Your legs fall asleep, your head gets itchy, your mind creates all sorts of reasons why you need to move, get up, scratch etc. The crazy out there thing is, if you acknowledge it but don't focus on it, just let it go, it all goes away without moving, scratching or anything else. Pain and discomfort are as transitory as joy and elation. You wouldn't want to stay in any one of them forever. Trust me!
When my marriage ended, I realized that if it was wrong for me, God is not cruel enough to make it right for him. By staying in his way, I was also blocking good things and relationships from coming to him. Both of us are now in a really good place and are able to continue being supportive of each other. We made the right choice, and moving through the pain and discomfort of that in the moment, has brought us to this place. We are both healthier and happier.
The old adage time heals all things is very true. And time brings more life and more things to be joyfully released as we open our arms to embrace all of the amazing things that are on their way to us. It is a grand version of the cycle of giving and receiving. To block one or the other, causes the flow in the circle to stop. I have spent a long time learning to be comfortable with receive. I have always been really good at the give part. But part of giving is not just giving the new, it is giving up what needs to be released to move on, or giving up that which no longer serves you. Give and receive refer not only to the people in your life, but to the universe as a whole. And the Universe has it 's own mind around what we need to give and receive. Everything is a gift. Even those things we must surrender. I find it helpful to try to remind myself that each person and thing in my life plays it's role perfectly and then moves on to where it is needed next.
Jump in the river and float, you are in exactly the right place at this moment, learning exactly what you need to learn. And we are all in there with you! The one thing I know is we are never alone.
In love and light,
Kathryn
Namaste my sister, I have enjoyed following your posts. My son has Asperges so I can relate to some of your concerns. I would like to invite you as follower on my site so that we may enjoy your point of view.
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